Carving This Hell - Rivilin

Wake alone on your shelf

Fearing from this hell

Medicated im losing balance

Suffocating from myself

Twisting pathways never seem to end

Watching you work your way through the woodwork to me

Buried deep beneath my skin

Im sick of this ill cut you out and move on

Taking chances breaking free theirs no end to this I can’t see

The writing on the walls explaining my delusions

Fading in the background in front of me, lose this atrocity

Where do you wanna be, I wish I never met you

And your friends, filled to the brim with painkillers

Opioids amphetamines, filling up my brain with negativity

Its this addictions, afflictions, in front of m

I guess its time I left you

I’v wondered, I’ve wondered more times then I can count

If I left you behind, would I still hate myself

I’ve pondered, I’ve pondered back and forth staring at me

If I could love myself, would I still be in this hell

Wake alone on your shelf

Fearing from this hell

Misery seems to find my shoulder

Fall in love with me again

Looking at you makes me break again

Seeing you smiling in the reflection with him, not me

Self-destructive tendencies seem to leech inside my hands

Take control of my thought process I just really need a friend

Who can understand this, no one but me

Living in this hell it’s built on self negativity

I know that I won’t help me get where I wanna really be

Lock myself inside my room board up the windows a crescendo of my mental state

I take a step back and I analyze

To specify my temperament I need to leave

Emphasize you criticize the means of me

Improvise you jeopardize the means to see

I’ve wondered, I’ve wondered more times then I can count

If I left you behind, would I still hate myself

I’ve pondered, I’ve pondered back and forth staring at me

If I could love myself, would I still be in this hell