Secrets - Phora

She said she couldn’t stay too late

She gotta be home by ten, she had school the next day

She wasn’t the type to play

She ain’t like them other chicks

She ain’t known for getting drunk, popping pills, or sucking dick…

More like the type to show up to class

An hour early, never wearing shorts that’s showing her ass

Got a hold on her past, she can’t let go of it

She don’t really smile, but nobody ever notices

Grade A student, all her teachers love her

She just wished she felt that same love from her mother

But she’s stuck in county jail for eighteen months

So it’s just her and pops n everyday he’s drunk

They hardly talk, so when she gets to the house

She goes straight to her room and she shuts the lights out

Hoping the next day comes sooner than later

She can’t wait to move out, four-hundred dollars saved up

She knows she got a long way to go

But she keeps her head so high you’d prolly never know

What she had to go through for so long

Yo, but she never forgets to hold on…

She said, «If you knew my secret, I wonder what you’d say

I wonder if you’d leave and I wonder if you’d stay…

I wonder if you’d see me in a different way

It’s hard to hold this in, I think about it every day…»

Yeah, I wonder what you’d say…

I wonder if you’d see me in a different way…

I think about it every day…

She met a kid named Joey, knew he had a crush

Always made her laugh and said things to make her blush

But, she tried so hard to pay him no attention

Scared her past would eventually ruin the friendship

'Cause it’s so hard for her to open her feelings

He said, «If you don’t give me your heart beautiful, I’m a steal it»

So twelve months passed and ever since he said that

She been in love, but everybody has their setbacks

Slowly but surely he was fading away

While she was falling deeper for him and she waited for days

For him to call her like he always did, but five days went by and

If you listen closely you can hear her still crying

She wrote on paper saying, I’m sorry

I just wish you knew you’re the reason that my heart beats

Always made me smile ever since the day you saw me

You were my guardian angel when I had nobody…

Yo, but there’s something I haven’t told you

For six years there was something that I had to go through

That shattered my spirit and my dreams, I know you can see it

My father did these things to me and no one believed it…

My mom was never there to see I hope when she reads this

She ODs on the very thing that broke us to pieces…

You were the only person I ever loved

And it kills me inside to know that I was the one

To ruin what we had and I knew this would happen

Yo, I just thought me and you would’ve lasted

Knife to her wrist as she dropped to the floor

But right be before she cut she heard a knock at the door

She said, «if you knew my secret, I wonder what you’d say

I wonder if you’d leave and I wonder if you’d stay

I wonder if you’d see me in a different way

It’s hard to hold this in, I think about it every day»

Yeah, I wonder what you’d say

I wonder if you’d see me in a different way…

I think about it every day…