Sober - Ekoh

Yeah, feeling sick again

Swore the last time was the last time

But look at me on a slip again

Wish I was different but it’s always the same

So strained a feeling of that withdrawal pain

And all my friends they don’t understand

It’s been a minute since you got a bag maybe it wasn’t that bad

And you can just have one now

And I’ll be taking one balloon so high I’ll never come down

So wake me when it’s over I got to try to fix this

I’ll call you when I’m sober or when I’m not resistant

I’m sorry that you love me, I know you hate it

Fucked up when I stopped being grateful and got complacent

I’m only high cause I been feeling this low

And that’s the only make it back to normal I suppose

And I know you think I’m perfect but all of that’s a facade

And trying to hide how I been feeling is lonelier than I thought

So put the bottle down, I really don’t trust what I do

I make the worst decisions sober that’s the fucking truth

Cause I don’t take the first hit when I’m already blitzed

I take it clear headed uncomfortable in my fucking skin

You don’t know what I’ve done

I swear to God that if you did

Then your heart would be broken into a million pieces

Had it all but I lost it in a blink

Afraid to ask for help cause I’m afraid of what you think

Mama I’m so sorry I’m not sober anymore

Daddy please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor

To the ones who never left me we’ve been down this road before

I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore

And I’m just hoping for some happy in the end

Trying to be a hero I can’t even save my friends

You don’t know where I’m at or where I’m going where I’ve been

So don’t try to pretend

I’ve got an itch I’ll never scratch but I’m going until I bleed

Like who the fuck are you to tell me what you think I really need

Cause I’ve awoken up a beast that never stops until it feeds

And it’s been eating me alive inside my dreams

And I don’t mean to make you nervous when you think of me

Everybody is leaving me it’s hard to find someone to relate with me on this

frequency

I’m sitting in another meeting on the west side

Raising my hand again

This was not the plan again

Just sick of being sick

What’s that insanity?

Like it’ll be different this time but it’s never different though

And it doesn’t happen quick it happens gradually

And I never thought that life would be this fucking difficult

Just got a feeling I’m losing and maybe that’s a fact

Maybe these feelings are feelings I shouldn’t treat as facts

Like it’ll pass if you just try to let it go

But you will never understand the way it gets when I’m alone no

I don’t know how to love I swear to God that if I did

Your heart wouldn’t be broken into a million pieces

Had it all but lost it in a blink

Afraid to ask for help cause I’m afraid of what you think

Mama I’m so sorry I’m not sober anymore

Daddy please forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor

To the ones who never left me we’ve been down this road before

I’m so sorry, I’m not sober anymore

I can’t do this all on my own

You’re never too far gone to come back home

I can’t do this all on my own

You’re never too far gone to come back home

I can’t do this all on my own

You’re never too far gone to come back home