before the storm - Yesterday, guardin

And the funny thing is

No matter how hard you try

You always seem to disappoint people

I don’t want to be this anymore

I don’t want to be here anymore

I don’t want to fucking live

But I have to convince myself

That this life is worth living

That these people and places

Are something to live for

I’ve been saving this for the weekend

An eighth of spliffs to numb my emotions

My hair is split, im cutting the lose ends

My brain is shit, im tired of trying

I’m sick of this patience

Logic comes to dying

I knew you were lying but I didn’t care

You were something to stop my self hatred

I didn’t dare ask a question

You’re always on my mind

Intervention for loving too many times

Did I mention this pain is a way of life?

You learn to live with it

Or you let it eat you alive

I’d kill myself

Just to be myself

Don’t even ask the question

All I’ll be is a burden

I’d kill myself

Just to be myself

Don’t even ask the question

All I’ll be is a burden

I’d kill myself

Just to be myself

Don’t even ask the question

All I’ll be is a burden

Who the fuck am I

Just another psychopathic little prick you decide

It’s much better here without me cause you’re feeling alive

All I ever did was love you but everything dies

There’s a monster in my head that’s rippin' me apart

Vacant spaces in the places where we both would start

To separate and every day I blow my candles out

I sit inside but that’s not something you could care about

My heartbeat has grown tired of the wind

If you don’t love me anymore than please don’t bother to attend

I’m a waste of energy I’ll never see the point in this

Arms length, this love is tragic, I’m not something you would miss

I’m not something you would miss

I’m not something you would miss, no

I’d kill myself

Just to be myself

Don’t even ask the question

All I’ll be is a burden

I’d kill myself

Just to be myself

Don’t even ask the question

All I’ll be is a burden

I’d kill myself

Just to be myself

Don’t even ask the question

All I’ll be is a burden

I’m so fucking lost without you

They don’t really care about you

They don’t really care about you