Searching - Xan Griffin

Feels like my whole life’s in a disarray

I say I’m alright but honestly, I’m not okay

What happened to the head I had on my shoulders

I guess this is what happens when you’re getting older

At 17 I thought I had it all figured out

Doing music is the only thing I dreamed about

But all the passion I had it seemed to leave me

Feels like my soul departed from my body

So now I fill that void with sex and drugs

Psychedelic fucking and smokin' on nugs

Thinking that it’s gonna reignite that Fire

Burning desire, I’m lost and now I’m

Searching for, for the answers

I can’t cope, with this cancer

Lost no hope

Maybe I should end it all

I know what I have is a blessin'

If I’m being grateful why the fuck am I stressin'

Maybe it’s the universe tryna teach me a lesson

That things get harder once you graduate adolescence

This shit is taking a toll on my personal life

Making me bitter towards my girl and family I —

Never knew what depression would ever feel like

Until I lost my drive

I’m soundin' like a motherfucking drama queen

Just want you to know how much this means to me

Music’s my oxygen and I cannot breathe

Looking for inspiration so now I’m

Searching for, for the answers

I can’t cope, with this cancer

Lost no hope

Maybe I should end it all