Pharmacy - Ubi

Hundred days I slept alone

Faded off of methadone

Use it as a stepping stone

Now my fade is set in stone

More the take, the less I know

Boy I made a mess I know

Asking me if I’m okay

I’d rather just be left alone

A bump of coke, numb my nose

Headed down a bumpy road

Spend a couple months alone

Caught up in a undertow

I was feeling wonderful

But now I’m so uncomfortable

Lightning crashing, thunder rolling

I’m fighting for my fucking soul

Wifey come in and cut the coke

Living like my life is trash

And I am in a rush to go

Vanished in a puff of smoke

Panic cause I’m broke

How the fuck am I suppose to sleep tonight

Now I’m close to fiending

Fight the feeling, I ain’t feeling right

Isolated with my thoughts

That’s what I prefer to be

Think you giving gifts to get me lifted bitch you cursing me

I wonder if it’s purposely

Now I need it urgently

But ain’t no sense of urgency

And I can feel the urge in me

You come between me and my demon, you be pushed aside

Think I might skip out of town tonight, I’m 'bout to book a flight

Had my future looking bright, I don’t know what happened to it

Running down this path of ruin, now I’m Under Bad Influence

Started as a teen when I was smoking marijuana see

Told my family look away from me, no you don’t wanna see

Dance with Mr. Brownstone, and plunge it in my artery

Now what I cook up in spoon is permanently part of me

Open wide and swallow me, hope my son don’t follow me

Told my girl don’t coddle me and told my friend don’t father me

Go away don’t bother me, just please don’t let my mama see

Sick without a cure I need a script from out the pharmacy

I try my hand in Vyvanse, Percocet, Ritalin, and Adderall

Welbutrin and Trazodone, Seroquel and Risperdal

Vivitrol, Lamotrigine, Cymbalta, and Rufenal

Propofol, Abilify, Topamax, and Tramadol

Klonopin and Lithium, Depakote and Diazepam

Vicodin, Celexa, Gabapentin, and an Ativan

Loratadine, Fentanyl, Lexapro, Zyprexa

And a 100 other fucking drugs you don’t know the effect of

I need Vodka, Tequila, I need Bourbon, Scotch, Whiskey

I need Gin without the tonic, I won’t ever stop stiffly

I won’t ever quit quickly, when I quit I get sickly

Sipping now I got tipsy, let my nemesis get me

Now to start my car I breathalyze

My brain drain anesthetized

Told me I’m depressed but they ain’t tell me 'bout SSRIs

Opioid affect alive, a crisis causing death to rise

Pharmaceutical, they serve 'em 'cross the counter, weaponize

Searching for another fix, how the fuck it come to this

Angry with the government brother and I am numb as shit

Take a chance and run the risk of shaking hands with scum to get a couple grams,

I catch a lick but I can’t get enough of it

Focalin to stay awake, Xanny just to sleep at night

Trouble with addiction causing friction now I’m demonized

Staring at the reaper’s eyes

I don’t think nobody else can save me but you’re free to try

Catch another felony and I’ll be facing three to five

Running from reality, won’t let my children see my eyes

'Stead of playing hide and seek with him

I’m playing seek and hide

If I end up overdosing dead, nobody’d be surprised

A relief from pain in exchange for altered brain chemistry

A ball and chain, it seem they always make the same recipe

Profit off the sick and poor, it’s not a major mystery

They monetize the cure and lace the cure you gave me with disease

Open wide and swallow me, hope my son don’t follow me

Told my girl don’t coddle me and told my friend don’t father me

Go away don’t bother me, just please don’t let my mama see

Sick without a remedy unless I get the pharmacy