Lavender - Thornhill

I lay my head in line with the rest

Bent apart, crooked teeth

Sunken deep into my chest

Claw away my eyes

And empty my head

There’s one thing I can’t forget

It keeps me upright in bed

People get what they’re worth

I’m hoping you will too

I’ve been pulling teeth so I could finally get to you

Rearrange my body and turn me into you

My life of idols and stone

I’ll hold my breath till I’m blue

I can feel your grip crushing straight to the bone

You’re so ice cold

You might as well be a clone

I can see that you don’t need to be

Exposed now we will see

I’ll fucking tear my eyes out just to sew them shut

Try to take my walls down but I’ll build them up

Tell me is it a sin?

To kill you now or let it sink in?

Do you think you ended me?

Have you listened to the words that remain unseen?

I know you know who I wanted to be

Why do you put this hate on me?

I’ve found the meaning is nothing

And living is sad

But at least I feel something

Although all of it is bad

I won’t give up myself I know that you will attack

If this was all we had

I want you to take it back

Oh lavender why do you stare?

I won’t take part

I just don’t care

I’ll cry for you and give you my hopes

So those around me can tighten the ropes

Take a look at my broken fucking hands

I lay upon these shadows just so I can hide my head in the sand

Or just from you

Rearrange me

Cut apart my body

And turn me into something new

My life of idols and stone

I’ll hold my breath till I’m blue