Sometimes - Thavius Beck

Gangsta…

Yeah…

Life can be a funny thing, you got ups and you got downs, you got in-betweens,

its a cycle, my cycle is…

Goes something like this…

Sometimes I find life worth living

Like each breath is a gift-wrapped with a ribbon

Cause each date we shape fate with decisions

And each chance could be the last one given

Black and white is what this world isnt

So many shades reflect UV rays

And color the cornea in unique ways

Creations canvas on daily display

And each chance could be the last one given…

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t here

Wadcutter blows holes through both ears

Clean slate

Liberated weight

No fear

Ask me the truth and thats what you’ll hear

Some can’t stomach a state so severe

Thats why the pills so hard to swallow

Pleasure and peril now pointless

Hollow

The depths of hopelessness

Where I’ll wallow

Some can’t stomach a state so severe…

Most times I feel apathetic

Like fuck it, whatever, and okay, forget it

Twenty-nine years and I still dont get it

But the feeling is real and Im unapologetic

Fifteen years self five leaf medic

Music and not much else to my credit

Sure I could do with a few life edits

But I dont fix shit

I just let it

Fifteen years self five leaf medic…

This time I’m more motivated

Hunger

Desire

Thoroughly cultivated

Previous attempts I’ve somewhat emulated

While honing my craft

Do math and I’ll demonstrated it

Still to deal with my ills I’m sedated

Many an hour if its in my power

Depression is like wilted petals on a flower

And this is my photosynthesizer

Sometimes I find life worth living

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t here

Most times i feel apathetic

This time I’m more motivated

And each chance could be the last one given…

Some can’t stomach a state so severe…

Fifteen years self five leaf medic…