Well Adjusted - Summer Wars

How many times can I look at myself and say

You’re in the right direction, you feel okay

I can see miles ahead, but I still look back instead

A victim of a dream that I had too early

Ingrained since birth, nothing deterred me

I found what I love and let it kill me

A blessing, a curse, it’s all consuming

Had a dream that felt so real

I could see you like you never left

Had you for fifteen short years

But it’s been a whole decade since

I should go outside more

I should see my father

All this guilt in the back of my mind

Not enough to bother

I’m feeling lost again, anxiety creeping in

Somehow I think that you’d have the answers

You said I’d do bigger things

I hope this is what you mean

Fill in the void with smoke and adoration

Kill for a moment of peace, an original thought

There’s the life that I want and the one that I’ve got

I’m feeling lost again, it’s all in my head, I know

It’s the way you looked at me

Like you couldn’t get enough of

The little things I’d say

Without a second thought but

I know it’s not your fault, I see it clearly now

And what I don’t say out loud

I still miss you

I’m feeling lost again, anxiety creeping in

Somehow I think that you’d have the answers

You said I’d do bigger things

I hope this is what you mean

Fill in the void with smoke and adoration

Kill for a moment of peace, an original thought

There’s the life that I want and the one that I’ve got

I’m feeling lost again, it’s all in my head, I know