My Demise - Suffocation

He thought and the chance.

To lose or perhaps to gain

A new found worth or disgust.

None the wiser could know

Why is it my burden or blessing

To be the one to go through this loss

To lose or gain a chance at living

Why must I be this barer of such burdens?

To be this fortunate or cursed

I know not the difference with such weight on my shoulders

Again I must continue on the quest given to me

It is not a question, it is the answer — I will be the victor

I’ll die too many times and not have learned

The lessons forced upon me

I live not for myself

But for some greater good in this hell we call home

I no longer exist here among men

I’ve succumb to an unknown force

I’t s reduced me to nothing

I am not here even now, where am I?

As I still breath

I’m not alive, not to feel.

But rather to suffer and die

A lifetime that spans eternity

Too strong to selfishly close the book of life

This terrible nightmare that I’m living must be all in my head