Routine Pain - Spanish Love Songs

On any given day, I’m a 6 of 10

Bed to desk to bar, eyes on the floor

Still apologizing for the way I’ve been

Each breath more full of shit than the one before

Yeah, I know, the negative consumes me

Guess I’m alright

Let the guilt pass right through me

While my friends are taking dives

Off of cliffs, and I just worry

About the songs I’ll never write

It don’t matter, they don’t wanna hear me on the other side

So let me ruin my guts tonight

Just let me ruin my guts tonight

On any given day, it hurts to stand up straight

Erasing the same message from my phone

Reaching out to friends who probably think that I am dead

I should want to go home, but I won’t

These past four months I’ve been so angry

I’m not alright

Could you please come look right through me?

And try to give a reason why

I don’t know you, or why you care

But the Devil’s loose inside

And I’m so sick of saying, «Sorry», when I cry

So let me ruin my guts tonight

Just let me ruin my guts tonight

You can haunt me 'til the world ends

And we melt in the sunlight

Just let me ruin my guts tonight

On any given day, I’m out to break your heart

On any day you’ll bleed me my self worth

I’m done asking, «What's the point of finishing the things we start?»

We’ve got 10 years with these bodies, and maybe 20 on this Earth

But you said, «I can’t take another summer in this place

Everyone in this bar is the same

Everywhere I look, it’s just routine pain

I’m so sick of treading water»

Am I gonna be this down forever?

Am I gonna be this dumb forever?

Am I gonna be this gone forever?

Am I gonna be this numb forever?

Have you ever felt lower than everyone else?

I’m feeling lower than anyone else

'Cause everything’s lower than everything else

I wanna see how much lower I can go

Have you ever felt lower than everyone else?

Well I’m feeling lower than anyone else

Well everything lower than everything else

I wanna see how much lower we can go

How much lower we can go