Smoke & Felt - The World Is A Beautiful Place & I Am No Longer Afraid To Die

I was a sheltered kid

But we hit each other with bats

We kept our heads in helmets

While constantly swatting gnats

Two feelings you can recall:

Grip tape against our legs

And tossing orange felt balls cross-legged on carpet

The truth is there was more:

Marb lights and Lebanese food;

The fuzz of an uncle’s arm;

Spilling soda in the living room

There weren’t promises

It never felt like this

If everyone belonged here, it shouldn’t feel like this

There weren’t promises

It never felt like this

If everyone belonged here, it shouldn’t feel like this

The truth is we dropped it all

Kept our fingers' tendons wrapped too loose above the curb

And everyone saw it snap

Your neighbor said it looked like something from the twilight zone

Now we’re driving two hours away

With no tape player and a broken collar bone

These are promises

Now we feel like this

You end up on so many pills

They made promises

Don’t second guess that you see lightning

Now we feel like this

You end up on so many pills

We both smelled rain

Is this being held?

These are promises

I kept on watching

We shouldn’t feel like this

You end up with nothing

Is this being nothing?

Why do we keep freaking out?

You kept your arms around me

Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me

(I dipped my arm into the lake

We saw your struggle

Just stay calm)

Why do we keep freaking out?

You kept your arms around me

Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me

(I dipped my arm into the lake

We saw your struggle

Just stay calm)

Why do we keep freaking out?

You kept your arms around me

Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me

(I dipped my arm into the lake

We saw your struggle

Just stay calm)