This Year - Shearwater

I broke free on a Saturday morning

I put the pedal to the floor

I headed off on Mill’s avenue

And listen to the engine roar

My broken house behind me

And good things ahead

A girl named Cathy wants a little of my time

Six cylinders underneath the hood

Crashing and kicking

I listen to that engine whine

I am going to make it through this year if it kills me

I am going to make it through this year if it kills me

I played video-games in a drunken haze

I was seventeen years young

When my knuckles punching the machines

Taste of scotch rich on my tongue

And then Cathy showed up, we hung out

Trading swigs from the bottle of bitter and clean

Locking eyes, holding hands

Twin high-maintenance machines

And I am going to make it through this year if it kills me

I am going to make it through this year if it kills me

I drove home in the California dusk

I could feel the alcohol inside me hum

Pictured the look on my stepfather’s face

I was ready for the bad things to come

I down-shifted as I pulled into the driveway

The motor screaming out, stuck in second gear

The scene ends badly, as you might imagine

In a cavalcade of anger and fear

And there will be feasting and dancing in Jerusalem next year

And I am going to make it through this year if it kills me

I am going to make it through this year if it kills me

If it kills me