I Lost - Scar Of The Sun

Another day with my obscure reflection I’ll survive

An image so grotesque, from dreaming myself I deprive…

Spreading the disease

Through my lungs I blow to please

The necessity to state

That I won’t let you down!

Tendencies concealed

Got no armour nor a shield

Still on crutches try to stand

I can’t afford to frown!

Glasses on the wall

Scattered splinters on my floor

Like a custom made machine

That will inflict the pain

Weather is my foe

And my cloud is hanging low

Broken shelter over me

I can’t escape the rain

I scream but you don’t hear

I’m far but always near

Excuses I had none

In denial I ran

Elusive to your ear

Confusing words now clear

The justice isn’t done

My evil side has won!

A burden of my own, my dreadful past I can’t defy!

A nail in my flesh for every time I made you cry!

Spreading the disease

Through my lungs I blow to please

The necessity to state

That I won’t let you down!

Tendencies concealed

Got no armour nor a shield

Still on crutches try to stand

I can’t afford to frown!

You thought it’ll disappear

But clearly so severe

The stain was never gone

It just can’t be undone!

I whisper in your ear

The tragedy of fear

The justice of the gun

Carved this scar of the sun…

A nail in my flesh for every time I made you cry!

…And that may sound strange to you

But that’s exactly what I see…

…And what I see is what I feel!

…And what I feel is what counts!

…And it’s far beyond you can conceive!

…It's far beyond you want to believe!

Behind every window of my memory!

Over the every day survival!

In every corner that the eye can catch!

Above everybody else!

Above everybody else…

I lost!