Losing It - Sal Houdini

This one’s a little darker

Yeah

I don’t have no one to come home to

I don’t have no one to count on

I don’t have anyone to call my own

Nobody that I can fall down on

I don’t have, I don’t have, I don’t have no one

Book a show, get the bag, happy till it’s all done

Come back to the city get reminded that I’m alone

What do I lack that I don’t stand out to no one?

What do I don’t have that they have?

I have plenty

All the shit that I get in return I’m still so empty

Thought I’d be the happiest when I signed up with Fenty

Going through a midlife crisis in my twenties

Going out to Nobu by myself ain’t satisfyin'

Tired of the pain, and the hurt, and the cryin'

I know I’m a man I should start actin' like one

Trust me when I tell you and I promise you I’m tryin'

All this «you're Houdini» shit they give me I ain’t buyin'

All these fucking memories they killin' me I’m dyin'

Hurry just hurry

'Cause I got to get to my goal before thirty

And I got some people that’s dependin' on me

But how do I work when you play me so dirty

And why can’t we just accept me bein' perfect

I’m lyin' I’m not girl infact I’m the furthest

I’m made from a different cloth than every person

I promise I’m workin', I promise I’m worth it

I promise I’m okay even though I’m hurtin'

I know just how much you see and you’re lurkin'

I know that it bothers people I work with

I know they care for my health but it worsens

Maybe I just need another shisha but much stronger

I don’t know the time that’s tickin', I know I don’t have much longer

And my soul is out my body and these days that thing just wanders

When I die and in my casket throw that shit under the water

Let it sink with all the pain this world done gave me for the longest

I got like 3 different hitters posted up like I’m in congress

Shit, I had a lot of dreams of wifin' you I’m bein' honest

And my blood is boilin' hot like a hot summer day in august

Shit

Am I losin' it

Am I losin' it oh, oh

Am I losin' it

Am I losin' it oh, oh