Silver Lining - Reed Deming

I don’t wanna go outside

The sun is so uninviting

I don’t wanna call up my friends

Don’t want no one to recognize me

I just wanna stay in bed

And keep to myself entirely

I need the silver lining

I need, I need

I always seem to take offense, don’t listen to what they tell me

I do it for self-defense 'cause I don’t like the hang God dealt me

I don’t wanna make amends with all of the shit inside me

I need the silver lining, whoa

Oh yes I do, oh yes I do, oh yes I do need help

Don’t wanna lose, don’t wanna lose, don’t wanna hurt myself

I always do but it was gold underneath my shell

Wish I could choose to let it go and just be myself

Scared of my own shadow

My old mistakes, they follow me

Every single place I go

My insecurities swallow me

That’s why you can find me alone

Nose in my phone

Denying the things that I should know

That I should be glad

To have what I have

And not be afraid of that

Oh yes I do, oh yes I do, oh yes I do need help

Don’t wanna lose, don’t wanna lose, don’t wanna hurt myself

I always do but it was gold underneath my shell

Wish I could choose to let it go and just be myself

I wanna make a change in my life

But I don’t know where to start

It’s so hard to take that first step

Knowing you will fall

I need to lift the veil from my eyes

And see all that I got

I will find myself in these lines

I will find myself

Oh yes I do, oh yes I do, oh yes I do need help

Don’t wanna lose, don’t wanna lose, don’t wanna hurt myself

I always do but it was gold underneath my shell

Wish I could choose to let it go and just be myself