Was - Mackenzie Nicole

I’m just a shadow

A shadow of what I was

I wanna be better

Better than I ever was

I clock a different weight

And cut off half my hair

I don’t remember either happening

But I know that they’re there

Mmm

I wanna be better

Better than I ever was

The meds aren’t helping

As fast as I thought they would

Put me on prescriptions

Save me from myself

You tell me I need to smile more

But I don’t think that would help

I’m just a shadow

A shadow of what I was

And I’m trying

To make it out the woods

I’m just fighting myself

I’m lying to myself

I’m just fighting myself

I’m lying to myself

Do I sigh to myself?

Do I cry out for help

Even if I hate myself

I am stuck by myself

I’m just a shadow

A shadow of what I once was

And I’m not dying

But would I if I could?

When you ask me why I’m like this

I guess that my brain just got sick

When you ask me why unhappy

I can tell that you’re pissed at me

Tell me how to stop the noise

Cause I hate to dissapoint

So while I rip out my heart

I guess I’ll smile and play my part

I’m just a shadow

A shadow of what I once was

I wanna be better

Better than I ever was

Haha