Yanahuari Nin - Lila Downs

Yeah, it’s my life

My own words I guess

Have you ever loved someone so much

You’d give an arm for?

Not the expression

No, literally give an arm for?

When they know they’re your heart

And you know you are their armor

And you will destroy anyone

Who would try to harm 'em

But what happens when karma

Turns right around and bites you?

And everything you stand for

Turns on you, despite you?

What happens when you become

The main source of a pain?

«Daddy look what I made

Dad’s gotta go catch a plane»

«Daddy where’s mommy?

I can’t find mommy, where is she?»

I don’t know, go play, Hailie

Baby, your daddy’s busy

Daddy’s writing this song

This song ain’t gonna write itself

I’ll give you one underdog

Then you gotta swing by yourself

Then turn right around on that song

And tell her you love her

And put hands on her mother

Who’s a spitting image of her

That’s Slim Shady, yeah baby

Slim Shady’s crazy

Shady made me

But tonight Shady’s rocka by baby

And when I’m gone

Just carry on, don’t mourn

Rejoice every time you hear

The sound of my voice

Just know that I’m looking down

On you smiling

And I didn’t feel a thing

So, baby don’t feel no pain

Just smile back

And when I’m gone

Just carry on, don’t mourn

Rejoice every time you hear

The sound of my voice

Just know that I’m looking down

On you smiling

And I didn’t feel a thing

So, baby don’t feel no pain

Just smile back

I keep having this dream

I’m pushin', Hailie on the swing

She keeps screaming

She don’t want me to sing

«You're making mommy cry, why?

Why is mommy crying?»

Baby, daddy ain’t leaving no more

«Daddy you’re lying»

«You always say that

You always say this is the last time

But you ain’t leaving no more

Daddy you’re mine»

She’s piling boxes in front of the door

Trying to block it

«Daddy please, daddy don’t leave

Daddy, no stop it»

Goes in her pocket

Pulls out a tiny necklace locket

It’s got a picture

«This'll keep you safe, daddy, take it withcha'»

I look up, it’s just me

Standing in the mirror

These fuckin' walls must be talking

'Cause, man, I can hear 'em

They’re saying

«You've got one more chance to do right»

And it’s tonight

Now go out there and show

That you love 'em before it’s too late

And just as I go to walk out

Of my bedroom door

It’s turns to a stage

They’re gone

And the spotlight is on

And I’m singing

And when I’m gone

Just carry on, don’t mourn

Rejoice every time you hear

The sound of my voice

Just know that I’m looking down

On you smiling

And I didn’t feel a thing

So, baby don’t feel no pain

Just smile back

And when I’m gone

Just carry on, don’t mourn

Rejoice every time you hear

The sound of my voice

Just know that I’m looking down

On you smiling

And I didn’t feel a thing

So, baby don’t feel no pain

Just smile back

Sixty thousand people

All jumping out their seat

The curtain closes

They’re throwing roses at my feet

I take a bow

And thank you all for coming out

They’re screaming so loud

I take one last look at the crowd

I glance down

I don’t believe what I’m seeing

«Daddy it’s me, help mommy

Her wrists are bleeding»

But, baby, we’re in Sweden

How did you get to Sweden?

«I followed you daddy

You told me that you weren’t leavin'

«You lied to me dad

And now you make mommy sad

And I bought you this coin

It says, 'Number One Dad'»

«That's all I wanted

I just want to give you this coin

«I get the point, fine

Me and mommy are gone»

But, baby, wait, «It's too late dad

You made the choice

Now go up there and show 'em

That you love 'em more than us»

That’s what they want

They want you Marshall

They keep screamin' your name

It’s no wonder you can’t go to sleep

Just take another pill

Yeah, I bet you, you will

You rap about it

Yeah, word, keep it real

I hear applause

All this time I couldn’t see

How could it be

That the curtain is closing on me?

I turn around

Find a gun on the ground, cock it

Put it to my brain and scream

«Die Shady» and pop it

The sky darkens