Fear of Heights - Light This City

At times

When my mind wanders with my feet

My thoughts reach their destination before my body

Like a recurring dream

I find myself traveling to lands I thought beyond my reach

So new and different from my actual hideaway

And before I return to that same familiar gate

Words come together magnetically

Clearing way through the mess of obscurity

The knot of doubts restraining me

They form perfect letters to you in my imagination

And when finally confessed

Grant my release

Bodies bare of pretence

Timid and undressed

Do you mean to win me with these praises and offenses

Why ignore me if you profess to adore me

I didn’t think you could stand the sight of me

At least you spoke honestly

My refusal was based on damaged pride

Not an aversion to your advances

Obsessed with visions of the world

Of night in distant places

What lies outside of constancy

Outside of these fences

Passing the blurry lights

It’s not my eyes

It’s the world that’s unfocused

Distracted

I’m well acquainted with your inelegance and vice

You’re still more graceful than the night

That falls in each city with a sprawling indelicacy

I’m straying further from home

From my safe routine

And you’re trying to find your own

Can you blame me for inexperience

Just listen

It’s all the same

Bodies bare of pretence

Timid and undressed

Do you mean to win me with these praises and offenses

Why ignore me if you profess to adore me

Somehow I’ve been lifted high above the tops of trees

From this frightening height

The buildings seem to be flattened in the streets

I tell myself

Don’t look down

There’s no way to plummet charmingly

And when I do I know you’ll say

What a pity

She’s just not what I expected her to be

But I can’t let my fear of heights get the best of me

As my mind and body journey together in a parallel reality

I realize that if I’m falling

At least I’m free

I never want my feet to take me home