Too Much - Lauren Cimorelli

Go to work in the morning

And then I come home

It gets really boring

Always being alone

And I sit in my bedroom

Stare at empty walls

I threw out all of my things

Because I hated them all

I eat my dinner alone

I don’t want to stay home

All the time

I keep losing my friends

Over and over again

Along with my mind

I eat too much

Think I might throw up

I cry too much

Look like

I’m on drugs

I try too hard

And it’s not enough

It hurts too much

So I’m growing up

And I don’t trust anyone

Spend all my time trying to unwind

But it’s still too much

Open my eyes in the morning

Then I’ll close them again

It gets kinda boring

Always staying in bed

And I hang out with somebody

I don’t know too well

They don’t know that I’m dying

They don’t know I need help

When I’m driving alone

I don’t want to go home

But I don’t want to go out

I think everyone hates me

But I know that I’m crazy

Hope they don’t find out

I eat too much

Think I might throw up

I cry too much

Look like

I’m on drugs

I try too hard

And it’s not enough

It hurts too much

So I’m growing up

And I don’t trust anyone

Spend all my time trying to unwind

But it’s still too much