revealing hope - killedmyself, Lil Lotus

But there’s no avoiding elements of loneliness, and unfortunately,

the only thing that helps you through that is calling your friends and saying,

«I'm hurting» and they say, «Don't worry, we got your back.»

And the only thing that helps you there is knowing that there’s a light at the

end of the tunnel

And I know that I gotta die someday

So I’ll speed it up and blow out my brains

And all my friends say the same fucking thing:

«You'll be fine, close your eyes, you’ll be okay.»

(I'm not okay, I’m not okay)

I’m not okay, I’m not okay

I’m not okay, I’m not okay

(I'm not okay)

I’m not okay, I’m not okay

I’m not okay, I’m not okay

(I'm not okay)

I’m not okay, I’m not okay

I’m not okay, I’m not okay

(I'm not okay)

I’m not okay, I’m not okay

I’m not okay, I’m not okay

And I know that I gotta die someday

So I’ll speed it up and blow out my brains

And all my friends say the same fucking thing:

«You'll be fine, close your eyes, you’ll be okay.»

But, you know, there are lot of sleepless nights, and there’s a lot of stress

and there’s a lot of, you know, and sometimes your friends and family call you

and go, «Why haven’t you done anything for a week?»

And you’re like, «I wish- I’m just hurting.»

You know, just, «Please ask me if I’m okay instead of yelling at me.»

«Right.»

You know there- there-

It’s unfortunately unavoidable, but like I said, the reason anybody gets

through any of this is because there are people in our lives that care

desperately about our wellbeing and… Umm, when you disappear they don’t yell

at you, they come up to you and they say, «Are you okay?»

and that, that alone,

just somebody that you know is thinking of you and, umm, concerned about you,

it gives you the energy to fight on