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Dedicated

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Couldn’t imagine it would hurt like this

The first to admit that it overwhelmed me

My shades drawn, closed off

Hardly spoke to family or otherwise

Butterfly nerves in my stomach

So hard to summarise

Emotion a page

And going through phases

Mostly a maze that ends abruptly

Knowing that change is

The only thing immanent

Slowly configured it

Pieced it back together

Seeing that life plans a tin of this

You were scheduled to relocate west

Would have been fresh, on tour stopping through

To get caught caught up with you

But all that’s left is a shoe box and pictures

Just like 2Pac and Biggie

Wonderin' who shot ya figure

With shorties around the way

Forty dollars in change

Put you under

Got your mums reeling from solemn pain

I felt her heart break

But what was I to tell her?

No shelter from the rain

But I offered her my umbrella

(sampled)

You hopin' that the fact this shit was real

Like this

Said you know how it go

It’s only a matter of time in life, planets collide

A star appears

That’s the street speaking, nothin’s shaking

Every day of the week you act different

A star appears

Yo — knew I was supposed to get back at you

But after you was different

Second look, it had me mad again

I had a friend when I was younger

Used to ask me when we spent time

Lyin', I told him: every other holiday

Hard to contemplate the pain at age ten

Knowin' I couldn’t depend on you for a damn thing

Advancin' from a boy in the ring

What life knocked down

You not around to see me develop

Into a grown man

No consolin' my moments of crisis

Knowing the price is paid by both

Who s’posed to be thicker than water

Thinkin': why bother

You that father playing deadbeat

Bein' the bigger man

Left me to return the phone call

You told me you saw

My face in the papers

Hope it’s not a case of the vapours

You askin' for favours and shit

Could be legit

I don’t know how to trust you

I’d love to, but it’s been a while since you come through

(sampled)

You hopin' that the fact this shit was real

Like this

Said you know how it go

It’s only a matter of time in life, planets collide

A star appears

That’s the street speaking, nothin’s shaking

Every day of the week you act different

A star appears

(sampled)

I survive on intimacy and tomorrow — that’s all I’ve got goin' and the music

was like smack and you knew about that and still refused my dance was not

enough

Well look, junkies layin' on the floor and dyin'

That’s some man coppin' some kicks to the dead

And the music was like smack…

Now suffer’s old sign

To feel him up for anything else that’s been left

And the music…

And the music…

(sampled)

This is, uh, kind of a special piece of music

It’s autobiographical in nature

There are not too many secrets there