Suicide Note - K Rino

To whom it may concern, I apologize for everything I’ve done

And all the trouble that I caused, all my humanistic flaws

And the problems I’ve probably put all my people through

Inner peace was unattainable, the pain was unexplainable

Too deep for you, I’m sitting here wearing a suit never been worn

Blaming myself for world problems, wishing I’d never been born

In a state of deep depression, for my soul ain’t no lifting

Flashing back about life about moves I would have made different

I heard it said that taking your own life is selfish

And never dealt with what I dealt with, struggle to felt this helpless

It’s my life, so I choose whether to cancel or save

But on the other hand what right do I have to take something that God gave

I’m pretty sure there’s some people in the grave that died young

That would love to still be in the game with breath inside lung

But I’m sorry to disappoint them huh but in all modesty

I’m about to terminate my policy and end this odyssey

How shall I kill me, let me count the ways

I’ve been devising and contemplating murder methods for days

Should I take a bottle of pills, drift off and never wake up

Thrust myself from a bridge and break up my bodily make up

Should I prop my back against the wall and pop my gat

To forcefully extract exploding brain material or visit Doctor Jack

To get a lethal dose of arsenic, injected in my heart, causing it

To pause when high poison gets off in it

But then again another killing plan that I’m feeling, man

Is to rope my neck then stand on a chair then dangle from the ceiling fan

Or take some gas since expiration is fast, heads thrown

But now I’m about to make my own future the past tense

So I’ma write this note and leave this Earth

But by the time y’all read this I can see that tryna save me' will be needless

'Cause yesterday I felt terrific, but the world is wealth addicted

Injected depressive thoughts, now my wounds are self-inflicted

In my room, my mind made up, no chance for survival

Past suicidal, on my bed is a Quran and a Bible

But it’s too dark to read 'cause all I’ve got is a candle lit

I can’t handle it, phone been ringing all night but I ain’t answered it

Huh, I got my Sam Cooke CD on

About to satisfy all the snakes and hypocrits who wanna see me gone

That’s when I turn the TV on

And I noticed the needy woman living on the streets with 2 children,

without a home

Watching the news, I see a lady breaking down

For a chalk line on the ground where her sons body was found

Eliminated by a bullet from a cops gun

I’m witnessing wars where bombs killed inoccent people when they drop one

And folks appreciate life for what it is

And little kids laughing just made me realsie I wanna live

Now I’m grateful for my life and every breath I ever took

Now I can fold this letter up and place it in my Black Book