In - Horrorshow

Don’t push me 'cause I’m

Close to the edge

I’m tryin' not to

Lose my head, a-ha-ha-ha-ha

Nothin' in my pockets but an empty wallet and some house keys

And a fuck you for anyone who doubts me

As I walk the streets armed with the faith

That these boots will be enough to get me home in one piece

I exhale, breathe the air

Smoke trail got me thinkin' 'bout the reason I’m here

'Cause I’m only 19 but my mind is old

Sydneysider heatwave to Minnesota cold

Cold like the streets of the Cross where underages

Litter the pavement, this ain’t «Paradise», it’s «Innocence Lost»

Cold like the veins of the junkies

Cold like the hearts of those who take their money

I swear to God somebody died on my block the other night

A life lost to a domestic fight, and that shit ain’t right

Now my picket fence don’t look so white

I wonder what possesses a man to kill his wife?

And as if that wasn’t enough, we got these fuckin'

Poker machines sucking the souls of our single mums

See, I’m like Tim Freedman, I wish I could blow 'em up

For all the futures that they ruined and the homes they’ve broken up

Now that’s proof of a cold world, they package an addiction

And they sell it as a game, but anyway

Times are exponential, two-party preferential

And though it’s incremental, day-to-day we makin' change

So here I am still tryna make this stone bleed

In the city of late trains and broken dreams

Where you rap with your talk, or you graff on the wall

You gotta make something outta nothin' at all

And yes, I built this house, I made it wrong

I watched it crumble, now I’m moving on

Now shit is rotten to the core, what a pity

We don’t wanna be forgotten, it’s why we write our stories on the walls of our

cities

I’d write 'em all for you if I had the time

In 40-foot high letters 'cause they’re important

It’s enough of a challenge handlin' mine, take it one day at a time

Treadin' water and crossin' borders

Next to me a baby’s cryin' for his mum as the ground’s leavin'

Economy class with chaos all around me

But I don’t even care, I’m not even there

Frozen in a blank stare with my headphones blaring like:

Don’t push me 'cause I’m

Close to the edge

I’m tryin' not to

Lose my head, a-ha-ha-ha-ha

Nothin' in my pockets but a boarding pass and a passport

Plus an «I love you» for the friends I never asked for

It keeps me safe, guards me from the sickness

Like a pocketful of posie as I walk with the wicked

Talk with a quickness, never let 'em catch up

They wouldn’t play with you if they could see the odds was stacked up

So you pack it up, move it town to town

Gotta study how the local village people get down

Ridin' through the night on a tube train

Having revelations 'bout my place in the food chain

Lookin' out the window at the world whizzin' by

I’m determined to do something with my given time

And to begin with I’ma fit it in a rhyme

Watch us plant this forest one seed at a time

So shit, I spend my days hopin' but by the same token

We here to get our chains broken and our names spoken

So this is my dot on the map, my drop in the ocean

My patch of dirt, and I’ma make somethin'

Make somethin' work, make somethin' feel

Make somethin' hurt to make somethin' real

Make somethin' out of me, make a friend out of you

Then again, make an enemy if need be

So just let me be, let me rest

Let me sleep, let me wake

Let me eat, let me grow

Be at peace, let your guard down

Let me close, I’ll let you see

Let you know, let you near

Draw you in, let you hear

Show you things, I’ma let you in

Said I’ma let you in

Said I’ma let you in

Horrorshow, 2009

One time for your mind, said I’ma let you in

'Bout to take you inside

«So here is us, on the raggedy edge.

Don’t push me, and I won’t push you.»