Celapram - Horrorshow

One of these days I’m gonna shut my eyes forever

So tired of seeing what’s wrong with life

And as much as I wish that I got along better

With these people

I’ve heard it written that every flower withers

So I carve up my palm just to bleed these inscriptions

Sometimes it’s a given, sometimes it’s not

And we struggle with the pieces to the puzzle of the plot

And all I see on my CD shelves

Are the pieces of me that probably need help

Like I don’t eat good, so I’ve always got the hunger pains

Rocking baggy clothes to hide the fact that I’m underweight

I bust a phrase to escape cause I’m feeling stuck for days

Nothing changes but the motherfucking date

It’s such a shame, see the structure crumble and fade

Until you’re left with nothing but some dust on the clay

Life gets ugly, writing rhymes to Jeff Buckley

A cold and broken «Hallelujah» for this crash test dummy

I’ve been accepting the past, I’ve been the first to cry

Now I’m hoping I’ll be the last to laugh

In this paradoxical existence

Where the oxygen we breathe to live corrodes our bodies and kills us

If I could hold my breath for eternity

Then I’d live forever but never deliver these words I speak

I can’t do this anymore mum

Sick of the baggage under my eyes, the vanity of my forearms

I hate my body, it’s just a shell for my soul

And my songs will live on long after my bell has been tolled

And would you even cry?

Could you move on with your life or would you need to know the reason why?

I’m feeling grand and poetic

Might the Kurt Cobain route and blow my fucking brains out, there, I said it

Sometimes I need to talk to someone, I’m just not sure who

That feeling of the morning after, the lockjaw blues

And I can’t write about the breakup, been numb for too long

Every day is like a breakdown, I can’t seem to move on

So what I crack a few smiles?

It’s all futile

The Grey Space, hip-hop, Beyondblue star

Waiting for the beat to stop in this game of musical chairs

I’m just a kid trying to make something beautiful, there

One of these days I’m gonna shut my eyes forever

So tired of seeing what’s wrong with life

And as much as I wish that I got along better

With these people, don’t you think that there’s a reason why?

One of these days I’m gonna shut my eyes forever

So tired of seeing what’s wrong with life

And as much as I wish that I got along better

With these people, don’t you think that there’s a reason why?