The Cost - Emilio Rojas, Gene Noble

I don’t trust like I used to

Love like I used to, trip like I used to

Just wanna use you and that’s what I’m used to

It costs too much and the price goes up

Now I been losin' sleep to my anxiety, this world is full of fiends

I’m losin' friends to my sobriety, no one’s what they seem

My girl just spent the whole night cryin' for me

She swear to god I cheat so every time I step outside the crib

She beg me not to leave, I know relationships need trust

And we don’t got enough, y’all findin' friends

I’m findin' alibis inside the club, nowadays I’m talkin' less

Every conversation leads to arguments

And I don’t care who right or wrong, I just want it all to end

I started textin' other broads again

‘Cause you just been accusin' me non-stop

I might as well do what you thought I did

And I been harborin' resentment so it’s hard to keep a friendship

When your heart just isn’t in it girl

It’s hard to keep pretendin', all my dogs is tellin' me

That I should leave like yo, you bad for my career

You say you not, I believe you, ain’t no spark

And we ain’t fuckin', we can’t come to an agreement

I’m addicted to the drama, I don’t love it but I need it

We been screamin' at each other, other day, I almost hit you

Shit, I never thought of touchin' a woman till I was with you

And that scares me, now I don’t like that side of me

If you don’t understand why I been driven

How the fuck you plan to ride for me?

It been bubblin' inside of me, I’ve been dealin' with it quietly

Are you strugglin' with trust ‘cause I don’t struggle with monogamy

Truth is, it don’t really make a difference

‘Cause it don’t matter if I’m honest if you still are askin' questions

We been stressin' over money, we been beefin' over bills

And keepin' track of who been spendin' what

That petty shit’ll kill ya, I don’t care ‘bout other bitches though

I’m grown, I’ve had my fill, I’m tryna lay this foundation

That the both of us can build from, we supposed to have some children

And adopt your nephew and get a condo in the lower

With an Audi and a dog we rescued

Sometimes I wish that it could all be simple

But ain’t no way that’s gon happen

When you think about the shit we been through

I don’t trust like I used to

Love like I used to, trip like I used to

Just wanna use you and that’s what I’m used to

It costs too much and the price goes up

Your father hit you, shit, you hinted at him touchin' you

It’s probably why you love to call me daddy when I’m fuckin' you

You validate yourself through sexuality and love from dudes

And girl, it’s been a while for us so tell me who you runnin' to

You stayin' late at work and sleepin' out

Got me feelin' like a guest in my own house

Shit, I been sleepin' on the couch

Comin' home in clothes I know you can’t afford

And it’s crazy, who been buyin' them for you

‘Cause girl, I know it ain’t me

Who been takin' you for dinner?

You don’t eat at home

Already know the answers to these fuckin' questions

I should leave ‘em ‘lone, shit, I don’t even know you lately

You a stranger and the closer that I get to my success

The more you change up, you claim you want me winnin'

But with every little victory gon' come another argument

You bitch and talkin' shit to me

You beggin' me to keep you company in all your misery

You tellin' me you’d die for me but you refuse to live with me

See women in my industry and call ‘em like I’m fuckin' ‘em

But I’m just workin' with these girls

You think I fall in love with ‘em

And after that shit happen, when I see ‘em, I be duckin' ‘em

‘Cause I don’t want the drama to catch up with us

I know I should be done with us

But somethin' keep me here and keep you with me

Conversations give you more ammunition to use against me

Try to see you, you won’t let me and you text me like you miss me

How the fuck your full lips feel empty when you kiss me?

Wish it was different, yeah, but girl, it isn’t

And now the one that I can’t live without is not the one I live with

I been out with different women every night just to forget it

But it don’t feel the same, now somethin' missin'

Somethin' feelin' out of place, ain’t no reachin' you

What the fuck you wantin' me to do?

You’re dead to me

Now I ain’t gettin' over you, I’m grievin' you

You made an enemy of someone who believed in you

But somethin' ‘bout us make me wanna be with you, damn

I don’t trust like I used to

Love like I used to, trip like I used to

Just wanna use you and that’s what I’m used to

It costs too much and the price goes up

I don’t trust like I used to

Love like I used to, trip like I used to

Just wanna use you and that’s what I’m used to

It costs too much and the price goes up