Lunatic Thirteens - Elway

We dressed up for the funeral in our nicest borrowed clothes

I put on dress shoes that I stole and ran out

And we made way through the roundabouts of a gray suburban town

The snow was scattered on the ground and I thought

Before you left did you say all you wanted to?

Before you died did you do all you meant to do?

Could you look it in the eyes when it came for you?

Tell me how it ends

Cause you lived like a tightrope walker

While I was on a phone call somewhere else

When you fell I couldn’t catch you

I was getting drunk all by myself

And the hardest part was to show up here at all

As I listened to your eulogy from that priest you didn’t know

I half wrote letters to your nonexistent ghost

Hey Jazmine are you listening?

I know I never return calls

But if you’re there at all just tell me

Was it just the dope that failed you

Or did everything just let you down?

Is there a way I could have saved you

If I was there would you still be around?

The hardest things just can’t be known at all

I don’t know the whole truth

But I know a piece was buried with you