My Body - Eliza Shaddad

No use in hiding how he plays on my mind

As I lay down to look for sleep

I shoot the breeze, stare at the ceiling for a usual while

And then I bury my head under the sheets

Picture his fingers on my back

With each little slip I am reminded of the lack I feel

And it’s burning down

I need to find a way to forget somehow

Oh cause I don’t know if I’m right

I don’t know if I’m wrong

But my body seems to know right where it belongs

But now I can’t seem to shake, feeling that I made a mistake

Every night your memory is keeping me awake

I’m well aware that there’s a danger in the games I play

Pretending he is here with me

Still I twist and turn until I’m tired enough that I can blur the empty space

with my reality

I hang my hand over the edge

As if I could wave away the worst of all the things I’ve said

But it’s still wearing me down

I need to find a way to forget somehow

Oh cause I don’t know if I’m right

I don’t know if I’m wrong

But my body seems to know right where it belongs

Till I can’t seem to shake, feeling that I made a mistake

Every night your memory is keeping me awake

How long must I wait?

If I behave you’ll show me some way

If I wait

No use in hiding how he plays on my mind

As I lay down to look for sleep

I shoot the breeze, stare at the ceiling for a usual while

Before I bury my head under the sheet