Attracted to Pain - Eligh

The same inadequate feelings I had when I was 9 in love with an eighth-grader

come up when you’re around me;

Envy, jealousy, sadness, lack of confidence compiled into an extensive list of

defects;

I still feel like a reject;

So I must eject your madness;

Cleaning out my cabinets;

Taking my key set back to the heart muscle you pickpocketed me for;

Deep emotional struggles stain the canvas of my psyche;

Nice guys finish last;

That is the case with you and me;

Nice lies finish fast;

I lost the race before it started;

Truancy so late to the dance;

I’m 31, you 21;

Shoulda known better;

Shoulda ran away when I spotted you;

But I entertained my appetite for pretty lips;

Let my ship sink yet plotted to get over my attitude;

I guess I got too much to work on to fuck with ya;

Take a picture of my condition then mount it in your memory;

Sweetness can’t compare to aggressiveness when you’re messing with damaged

beauty;

Sleepin' on my instincts, I need to listen;

It takes a lot to feed a fish and keep it alive;

I will survive and I will improve;

I will fuck up when I’m in the mood;

I tell myself I like the pain;

When I hate the pain, I state my name in a picture frame, in the hall of shame,

when it’s not the case, so I must refrain, from you again;

It’s not the pace I want to run;

I want to face my emotional demons;

And now and then they creep in, but I will not let them stay;

HOOK X3

There is something wrong with me;

I don’t know what it is;

I’m attracted to what hurts;

The most, now that’s the shit;

Give it to me baby, hurt my heart, I like the scars;

I guess I haven’t learned my lesson yet;

Feel me on this verse;

It’s a blessing, and a curse;

To think from the heart first;

Many times brought to the brink;

Tears wanna expose my weakness;

I’m running like I’m in the;

Always end up feeling defeated;

This end up when you open the heart box;

She’s a bitch when she don’t open it right;

Holdin' my nights and days in the palms of ya hands like see you;

I am the prototype;

Hold the mic with confidence;

Then step out into the light and shrink;

I ain’t shit, my disease is strong;

Used to fight it with a bong;

Now I write it in a song, highlight it and move it on;

HOOK X3

There is something wrong with me;

I don’t know what it is;

I’m attracted to what hurts;

The most, now that’s the shit;

Give it to me baby, hurt my heart, I like the scars;

I guess I haven’t learned my lesson yet;