Feel Ya Pain - Diabolic

My life is waking up to sunshine from darker scenes

History repeats itself: spark a Dutch, start to lean

My heart combusts.

I want to scream, reaching far extremes

Desperation.

‘Bout to spark a fiend like Charlie Sheen

I stay stressed.

Paychecks are few and far between

I’ve worked for years, so I’ma persevere despite how hard it seems

I’m just a starving artist.

I don’t market dreams

Or target teens with garbage, see?

I’m focused on a larger scheme

The scheme I’m focused on goes beyond just being paid

A culture born before the VMA’s and pop shit being played

Angel on my shoulder fighting what the demons crave

Presence felt and still respect myself when I leave the stage

But in recent days, I’m left in Hell with seeds to raise

And can’t seem to trade an honest living for a decent wage

I’ll watch the local news or, on occasion, read a page

See policemen strays kill a kid when D’s squeezed the gauge

Fuck is wrong with people?

We should be enraged

But the fact remains we act the same and aren’t even phased

We’d rather drink away the pain and smoke the greenest haze

Lord, if you exist, please forgive me for my evil ways

Then have us all believe the phrase «streets are paved with gold»

Disappointment left the pistol pointed, ‘bout to take our souls

So as the paper folds, I’ll pray that I can take control

Before the present day becomes the days of old and ancient scrolls

I don’t see the light.

Is anybody there?

I want to leave this life.

Does anybody care?

Can anyone relate?

Do you feel the same?

‘Cause the only way I know that I’m alive is feeling pain

When life becomes a struggle, I can feel your pain

Broke as fuck, trying to hustle, I can feel your pain

Making dough but owe double, I can feel your pain

That describes my own behavior.

Maybe I can motivate ya

Every night is sleepless ‘cause, everyday, I’m broke

‘Bout to drown in debt, treading water, trying to stay afloat

I’ll just listen to these politicians, taking notes

Wages don’t see raises close to the rate of inflation’s growth

I’d like to thank the snakes who post up in a Mason’s cloak

They provoke the rage in this page full of famous quotes

I’d also like to aim the scope at ‘em as they approach

My logic is to find the positive in what I hate the most

My fans got a taste for dope, so here’s a fatal dose

There’s more to gain when it’s pouring rain.

Absorb the pain and cope

Don’t let it slow you down, don’t let it break your hopes

Make a toast to fakes and rub it in their face like shaving soap

Today, I woke up to a note my baby mother signed

And I was forced to read the words this evil bird had underlined

She said, «I'm leaving you.»

I’ve seen this view a hundred times

But if she thinks she’ll take my son away, she’s out her fucking mind

We’re gonna shine despite the turning of deceitful tides

Full of secret lies, beneath our pride, where the demons hide

If I could do it over, I’d still let the semen fly

‘Cause if I didn’t, difference is, Kingston wouldn’t be alive

And while she smokes my weed supply, I’m here, screaming, «Why

The fuck do I even try?

Bitch, leave the keys and slide»

Reaching deep inside to find the strength I need to rise

Up from underneath this cunt’s deceit—so be it, fine

I don’t see the light.

Is anybody there?

I want to leave this life.

Does anybody care?

Can anyone relate?

Do you feel the same?

‘Cause the only way I know that I’m alive is feeling pain

When life becomes a struggle, I can feel your pain

Broke as fuck, trying to hustle, I can feel your pain

Making dough but owe double, I can feel your pain

That describes my own behavior.

Maybe I can motivate ya