Rituals - Dan Bull

I can’t let myself fall in love

Because I fall too hard

And I might break something

That face of yours is nowhere near to perfect

But the way I’ve been I don’t even deserve it

I’m feeling as nervous now as I ever have

And with each glance with which I see you it worsens

Personally I’d be pleased being your servant like Venus in Furs

Just don’t leave me in the lurch

There’s no reason or working to the feelings, I’m hurting

So please, give me a relief from the burden

The pipe dreams of my being with her

I mean who wants to sleep with a geek with Aspergers

I’ve seen and I’ve heard all I’ve needed to learn

And come to be with the terms that I’m the feeblest nerd

All you need is a skirt and some legs, a turn of the head

A wee little flirt and you’re off with the bees and the birds

But I’ll never stick my dick six inch deep in a bird

'til I leave in a hearse and I’m six feet deep in the dirt

I can only be creative when I see my failings

And say «this is me, now face it please»

Cos the beat’s a piece of paper for me to make a confession

And get the stress off my chest until I meet my maker

I read the signals wrong, hymn book open at the wrong page

But I still tried to sing along

Not long ago I thought bring it on

Then I got re-absorbed into the bitter smog

I’ve bitten off a piece of my own heart

So don’t start on how I’ve missed an opportunity

Too stupid to see who’d wanna be stuck with such a human as me

I’ve only got you in my dreams

My balls and my word are all but unheard of

So when I fall from my perch it’s all I deserve

Once in a blue moon I fall for a girl

And when I do, I’m betting you I fall and get hurt