Slave 4 Life - Crucifix

I was born in the city, it wasn’t pretty dawg

My life fallin' through the crack that I’m smokin' on

Rationalizing everything that I knew was wrong

Sippin' sin 'til it baptized me, wrapping myself in these chains…

And I’ll be gone in a minute

Sin called… I heard

Compromised my heart for a pile of dirt

One wrong, turned right…

A second later I can’t even tell wrong from right

Top speed, downhill

A little anger turns quick into the thought to kill

A couple blunts, a couple pills

A couple lines, just to cover up how I feel

I’m wrong and I know it, but I can’t even care no more

I’m just tryin' not to show it… wonderin' what I’m livin' for?

Stuck in between my faith and my demons, and I’m

Kickin' and screamin' just lookin' for meaning in life

Too proud to believe in a God I ain’t seein'

Still I want it even though I’m…

A slave tonight, free in regard to right

Thinkin' I’m lovin' every minute

A slave for life, and I can’t even see the light

But I’ll be gone any minute

Forget the God-thing

If anything’s raining down on me from heaven, it’s a lot of pain

But in the end, I’ll be wonderin' what it was I gained

From fillin' my life with the things of which I’m now ashamed

What if in the end I find I’m wrong

And I ain’t got nothin' left?

When everything I loved is dead and gone

And the paycheck to my sin is death?

God you see what I’ve been through

And all this life that I’ve ruined

Where all these things that I don’t want to do

Is what I find myself doin'

But I’m free!

And I love it!

I’ve seen God and I want some more of it!

I’m still a slave… just a different master

But I’ve never worn chains that felt so free!!!

A slave tonight, free in regard to right

Thinkin' I’m lovin' every minute

A slave for life, and I can’t even see the light

But I’ll be gone any minute