Cocaine - Crucifix

Somewhere along the way I lost myself, can you see me?

Somewhere between my

dreams and hell I’ve given up everything I believed in

But I had a name once, and now I’m someone that no one knows

I had a life once, but this ain’t the life I chose

Now I’m empty, drowning myself in my pain and nothing can fill me but this

addiction for cocaine

Just one more time and I can leave this life behind

Now once again I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place, this hell I call home

It’s got me lookin' like a madman, tryin' to understand this lust for substance

that burns in my bones

Suicide on a daily basis, I’m too high to face this pointless, helpless,

hopeless, heartless, God forsaken life I’ve wasted

Could you even fathom what it’s like to be broken, steady lookin' for a reason

for breathing except this evil you’re smoking?

And I never get a moment of peace, I’m living to feed the need for me to get

geeked 'cause I can’t eat and I can’t sleep and I can’t think what it is I do

and what I don’t believe

I don’t see how something so small could take control of me

I’ve given up everything I’ve loved

Everything I’ve owned and now there’s nothing left but this skin hanging from

my bones

I don’t know how something so small could rip the life out of my soul

I know that I must be blind but it’s taking over my mind

All I want to do is hit it just one more time and I’ll be find with this pain

that I feel when I’m lonely

I’m lonely, it’s got my mind gone, my mind blown, now I’m gone praying for

Jesus to take me home

Because I had a God once, but this ain’t' the God I chose

Now I’m empty, drowning myself in my pain and nothing can fill me but this

addiction for cocaine