Dream Went Bad - Childish Major, Tish Hyman

You know what you are?

You are so much me

And you don’t know me

And that’s a fuckin' bad way to be, ain’t it?

I mean, you really are me

You just don’t know how to be me

You always heard here’s is a bad situation or a bad thing

But the problem really here lies that you are a lot like me

You ain’t gon' deal with just any old kind of shit, right?

She said, «I'ma beat your ass, you punch another hole in my wall»

I’m just tryna show my mom I wanna stay with my dad

At this point I’m taking shots just to make sure she mad

She firin' back, «You can go if you can find where he at»

I was clinging to that dream until that dream went bad

It’s nightmares when your father lightyears away

If shit was heavy, wouldn’t shed a light tear today

I drown my problems in Hennessy

When your mama water and your dad oil

All they problems is transferred and fast forward

To where your problems need a task force

Flippin' through the dictionary, tryna find a last word

Fuck it, I’ma let you have it since you want it that bad

No sympathy for them tears, feel like you wanna be sad

All in the moment

But if we separate, just know I wait on your call

And if it never comes through, I’m back to punching these walls

I’m tryna show you the real in me

I’m tryna tell how I feel today

And I don’t want you to feel a way

But I’m just tryna say how I feel today

I love you, I love you (I love you, I love you)

I just wanna go my way

I wanna go my way

I wanna go my way

I love you, I love you

I just wanna go my way

I just wanna do it my way

But I love you, I love you, yeah

Ayy, she seen hands raised her mama

So the slightest bit of drama, she run away

And how can I blame her?

Ayy, how can I tell her to tame emotions

Up and down, no guidance, we fallin' from roller coaster

Look, who you learn from, you can burn from

I seen my father do the same things that yours did

I know my mother hid the same tears that yours did

Despite I know when we lit we get to arguin' and shit

Callin' me dog ass nigga and then I spit out a bitch

And make you mad than a bitch, then you start throwin' hits

And I’m just takin' 'em licks

Now, I can’t fathom seeing photos from arrest, so we ain’t fightin'

Oh, yeah, but seen what’s wrong, so let me try and do the right thing

I leave this shit alone before I throw a shot back

Hit the liquor store and maybe throw a couple shots back

Sit here by my lonesome and just wait on your call

And if it never calls, going back to punching these walls

I’m tryna show you the real in me

I’m tryna tell how I feel today

And I don’t want you to feel a way

But I’m just tryna say how I feel today

I love you, I love you (I love you, I love you)

I just wanna go my way

I wanna go my way

I wanna go my way

I love you, I love you

I just wanna go my way

I just wanna do it my way

But I love you, I love you, yeah

Ooh-ooh

Ah-ah

Ah-ah

I love you, I love you