Pain Medicine - Boundaries

A hot knife to my skin

Anything just to feel

Just to prove that I’m still here

Anything to register

Pain

Pain as a medicine

Addicted to my own self destruction

Heaven’s uninvited

Creator and destroyer

The arbiter of all composition

Albatross

Giver and taker of my existence

Pain

My only motivation

I’m working towards nothing

I feel like I’m fucking dying

No one knows that I’m here

And no one will know when I’m gone

A match lit in a canyon, burning alive in silence

A victim of my inaction, we always knew this would happen

I’ll take this to my grave

Don’t stop 'till it hurts

I need this more than you could ever know

Let this end with me

I’ll never be normal

Pain

The only thing that i’ll ever need

Pain

The only thing that will never leave

Because when you’ve been cut, and there is no longer a chance for wholeness

Only the feeling of how hopeless you become

To ever be the person that you thought you would

Lost solace

Absence of purpose

Your growth, stunted