Monster - Boondox

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the window

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the window

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the window

I’m not afraid of the dark

But I’m afraid of my heart

And I’m afraid that everything is gonna fall apart

Always afraid that things will never get better

I went from writing down rhymes

To typin' suicide letters

Diagnosed with paranoia

You can check my prescription

I’m a manic depressive

One of my many conditions

I’m not a prophet though I say it

But I’m seein' a vision

My life, it was beyond it one a one-way collision

If ignorance is bliss

Then I’m devoid of any sorrows

'Cause I don’t wanna know the outcome

Of today or tomorrow

I just wanna hide inside my own private Hell

How can I ever get to Heaven

When so many angels fell?

I’m just a human being

I’m just only being human

With eternity and judgement

From another always loomin'

It’s a wonder that I made it

With these voices in my head

With all these monsters at my window

Starin' at me in my bed

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the window

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the window

If you’re a friend to me or kin to me

An enemy or into me

I’m begging on a bended knee

Come and put an end to me

Put me out my misery

Permanently, no injury

I’m tired of fighting entities

I’m running out of energy

Feel like a lost boy

Searchin' for the answers

Just waitin' on tragedy

A heart attack or even cancer

So many monsters hidin'

Waitin' 'round the corner for us

If life is like a song

I’m at the verse and searchin' for the chorus

Maybe I should stop and take a moment

Put it in perspective

Maybe I should take a knife

And take a life and get injected

I just wanna go out

On my own fuckin' terms

Knowing it was me that put me

In the dirt and with the worms

I think I’ll pop another pill

Try to heal the ill

Wash it down with gasoline

Light a match and that’s for real

But I’ll just probably go to sleep

And try to clear my head

Hiding from these monsters

At my window, underneath my bed

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the window

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the window