Family - Badflower

Taste bitter on a guilty tongue

It's hard to see I'm the chosen one

Fake friends with a camera phone

Ugly, drunk, cold, and missing home

This home of mine

I see it in my dreams

Where everyone looks happy

And everyone still likes me

This home of mine

I miss it all the time

What happened to this family?

What happened to this family?

(Have I let you down?)

Texts, calls, hugs, birthday cards

Being thoughtful can be so hard

First fifteen years, I'm the favorite son

Last fifteen years, I'm the hatеd one

This heart of mine

Gеts blacker all the time

Affection makes me nauseous

Believe me, I don't want this

I hurt my blood tonight

I made my sisters cry

I never say "I love you"

Even though I want to

I'm just my father's son

My mother's kid

A shitty brother

I'm nobody's friend

This is all my fault

I only make you cry

I don't deserve this family

(You're better off without me)

'Cause I let you down

And I lost my fucking mind

Then everything got messy

And everyone got angry

I cursed my blood tonight

It happens all the time

Is everyone against me?

Has everyone goddamned me?

What happened to this family?

What happened to this family?

What happened to this family?

What happened to this family?

Don't hate me

Don't hate me

Don't let me drown

I hate goodbyes

So cringey, I could die

We only say "I love you"

'Cause that's what we're supposed to

And most families lie

But I meant it every time

Then treat you like you're worthless

I never said I'm perfect