stumble - awakebutstillinbed

We stumble into our dirty bedroom

Unload and undress, collapse into bed

Brushing away the past from our shoulders;

Another night, another day older

We discard our regrets and sleep in our secrets

You realize you don’t know how to tell me the truth

And I accept it: I am never happy to see you

We wake up early every day for weeks

Drive for long hours, take three person showers

You’re counting the days till you see him again

Another night, another day spent

Shutting my mouth tight, looking on the bright side

We knew from the start this would crush both of our hearts

But what can I say?

We did it anyway

But it is okay, we figured things would end up this way

And it is okay, I know I’ll stop breathing one day

And I’ll never be able to justify

The ways that I lived my only life

I just want something to feel all right

Something to show for all this time

How many times will I pour my heart into

Another person’s failure to move?

How many times can we give this a try?

How many nights will I lie awake waiting?