Hope - Anathema

I was not put here by anyone in fear

I came alone as me

Just an idea in a long chain of discovery

Surrounded by the same you

Sometimes your tide pulls me out to sea

And I die in a thrashing and curse

Sometimes we are kind

More often, I doze

So far up the beach that those who try to reach are burnt alive in the searing

heat of the desert of my dispassion

So far removed, I never hear the water

'cept once or twice a month when I see a mirror

And I refuse to believe in some of the things that are said to be here

Let alone those that are not

I’m trying to change my direction

Ours is pathetic in my own, humble, estimation

I love the planet

The great benign she-wolf

The benefactor

Spinning gently on towards the red giant four æons hence

When all the rose gardens are consumed in the flash-fire of flying time

She’ll leave alone to you

When you look at me

From your own century

I may seem to be

Strange archeology

But when the winds blow

From this direction

You may sense that I’m

In your reflection

I think I feel you

But I will never know

As the swallows leave

And the children grow

I wanted to live forever

The same as you will too

I wanted to live forever

Same as you will, too

I wanted to live forever —

And everybody knew

When I caught you there

In tomorrow’s mirror

I thought I’d felt you

Jump out of my skin

Throwing oil into

My blazing memories

Filling empty footsteps

I was standing in

I wanted to live forever

The same as you will too

I wanted to live forever

And everybody knew

With the falling rain the northern jungle

Hanging droplets on the leaves bombards my brain

I hear you across the room

And see daffodils spring into bloom

You are the mist

The frost across my window pane

And again

She moves her body

And her whispers weave

And the world spins

And tells me that I’ll never want to leave

When I look at you

From this dark century

It must always be

With generosity

That we both may share

The hope in hearing

That we’re not just

Spirits disappearing