Tiny Angel - 360

So this story, is about a really close friend of mine

I love you, brother

My mates talk shit about their wives, but I love mine

Yeah we fight sometimes, but ain’t that just life?

She’s been pregnant now for some time, it took us years

And enough tries, I thought it wouldn’t happen from my young life

From the drunk times, or when I tried drugs twice

I thought downstairs had gone and messed it up, right

The doctor told me that I need to stop stressin'

The only thing that’s working against us is just time

That was true, two months by

My wife called me up while I was workin' at the pub, right

She told me I was gonna be a daddy

We both broke down, she said there’s something that I done right

I called my mother, told her I was gonna be a father

Mum cried, so did I, I was tongue-tied

I can’t explain this feelin' but I love life

I’ve never had a purpose and this had just become mine

To create this little person that’s fun size

A little bit of her, and a little bit of me

But I pray he gets his mum’s eyes

I say he ‘cause I’ve always wanted a son, right

The ultrasound said it’s a boy, my little ray of sunshine

It dawned on me, I can’t wait to see my son rise

You know what they say about time though?

It does fly

Fast forward nine months and suddenly it’s crunch time

It’s been a few days of goin' through contractions

Gotta stopwatch timin' every moment that it happens

We reached five minutes so it’s hospital time

I call ahead to see the doctors arrive, my wife’s laughin'

Now I properly drive like the cops are behind

But there was barely any traffic so we got there in time

I’m a little scared, but she ain’t got a worry in sight

She’s a warrior, exactly what you want in a wife

It’s been several days of epic pain, every day she wakes up

Finally she’s comin' to that second stage of labour

I sit next to her, squeeze on her hand

Put a sponge up on her head and say, «Breathe if you can

I love you so much, baby, you’re so strong

I could never do this but you so easily can»

She said the pain is insane like her abdomen’s ruptured

Like someone’s got a knife, and they’re stabbin' her stomach

She’s like «We have to do somethin',» the nurse said, «It's natural

Relax, it’s just a sign that it’s actually coming»

She’s like «No, it’s too much, it’s too hard to get out»

I’m sayin' any words I think’ll help at calmin' her down

Doctor’s like, «You're nearly through the worst part of it now»

Take a look and see my little king is startin' to crown

They all tellin' her to push, and she’s screamin'

She’s saying that it hurts, I tell her to keep breathin'

It’s like ‘push' is the only word that they’ve said now

Then I’m shocked by the massive scream she lets out

The doctor’s like «Yes, now the head’s out»

And then I watch as he quickly pullin' the rest out

It’s so amazin' to see my son in the flesh

I can’t help but notice he hasn’t taken a breath, now

They put a little plastic thing in his mouth

While the doctor’s two fingers are slightly pumpin' his chest down

I start panicking, something’s gone wrong

They push me to the side, I can barely see what’s goin' on

He’s not breathin', they need to resuscitate him

He’s suffocating, I see that it’s something major, I feel

So helpless, I wish I could come and save him

I pray that my son’ll make it, it’s taking ‘em fuckin' ages

Everyone’s in shock, I’m just listenin' in

Holdin' my breath, wishin' I could give it to him, fuck

At twenty minutes, now they’re stoppin'

They turn around, they say, «We've lost him»

I’m in shock, I can’t talk

I’m starin' at the ground, I can’t walk

They hand him to us, can’t believe the size of him

The most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen but there’s no life in him

My wife’s cryin' like, «Why aren’t they reviving him?»

I said, «They tried for twenty minutes» she’s like, «Try again»

Now I’m feelin' like I’m stuck in hell

This is the worst pain I’ve fuckin' felt

I’ve been ten years clean, but now I’m drunk and on the drugs as well

I’m doin' anything to numb myself, but nothin' helps

I believed in God, for that I feel dumb as hell

Can someone please tell God to go and fuck himself?

I’m sorry, yo, it’s hard to be faithful

It’s painful, heaven must be runnin' out of angels

He died from asphyxiation, no air in his lungs

A parent should never have to bury their son

Especially one that’s so precious it has barely begun

That’s one thing in life that should never be done

I prayed for a son, and they blessed me with one

My biggest gift, now his presence is up

And I’m crying at the thought, he won’t ever feel a hug

Or the tenderness of love that he’d be gettin' from his mum

Sent him from above, but why take him?

It’s like I’m being punished for the negative I’ve done

And it’s killin' me that Christmas time is barely in a month

So I’m doin' what I have to do to spend it with my son

(No)

Where did you go?

Are you alone?

How did you get there?

I need you at home

Where did you go?

Are you alone?

How did you get there?

I need you at home

I need you at home